From an article originally posted December 19, 2013…
Today we head up to Denver to meet with a leader in his field in metastatic cancer to get a second opinion on my treatment options. We are doing battle against the micro-cells of cancer that have entered my blood stream. It’s a quiet battle, a battle of constantly looking. A battle that can steal your peace and make every ache and pain feel like something new to worry about. I have never been that person. I don’t like that person, but I’m not sure how to walk away from her. My new doctor heard my story and made an early appointment available. Like I said yesterday, the cancer in my brain isn’t gone, which we hoped would be, but it’s half the size, and all my docs are on vacation. We get it. We aren’t really in a hurry to jump back into treatment, either.
Those of us who are mothers remember the moment our sweet babies were placed in our arms. It’s a feeling we carry the rest of our lives. It’s amazing! The miracle of going through natural child birth, screaming and yelling out in the pain of feeling split in two, then to be suddenly silenced by the awesomeness of having a child placed in your arms. One moment being a husband and wife, to suddenly becoming a mama and daddy. It’s such a sacred moment. It is never lessened with each new child. The marvel of that precious moment will never dull.
Yesterday, I kept thinking of that moment. I felt like I was given the gift of holding my littles just a little while longer. We are under no illusions about my cancer, but this moment, this sweet moment felt like a gift. An answer to our prayer of more time. I pray I would not take this time for granted, that each gift of time would be treasured.
Today, I have my sweet littlest home, the rest are finishing up with Christmas celebrations, and then I have a hot date with my guy. Early tomorrow we meet a new member of our team. We would love your prayers for direction. It’s time to get going, working on my diet, continuing with my vitamins, and seeking the best therapy for my tomorrow’s to keep cancer quieted.
Tomorrow night!!!! WE DANCE!!!!!! It’s time to celebrate, wear ourselves out, eat finger foods, take pictures, and dance, dance, dance.
What is your favorite dance party song? I still need a few good songs. Jill and Terry, I have a set of songs just for you! Watch out—we’re bringing back NKOTB!!!!!
“1 God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble.
2 Therefore we will not fear though the earth gives way, though the mountains be moved into the heart of the sea,
3 though its waters roar and foam, though the mountains tremble at its swelling. Selah
4 There is a river whose streams make glad the city of God, the holy habitation of the Most High.
5 God is in the midst of her; she shall not be moved; God will help her when morning dawns.
6 The nations rage, the kingdoms totter; he utters his voice, the earth melts.
7 The LORD of hosts is with us; the God of Jacob is our fortress. Selah
8 Come, behold the works of the LORD, how he has brought desolations on the earth.
9 He makes wars cease to the end of the earth; he breaks the bow and shatters the spear; he burns the chariots with fire.
10 “Be still, and know that I am God. I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth!”
11 The LORD of hosts is with us; the God of Jacob is our fortress. Selah”
